24.2.10

I'm going to be jumping back and forward a lot. This wont make much sense as a whole.

So, I guess everyone has their off, on, good, bad, eventful, boring, high and low days.
Sometimes I want to just come home and forget about everything and just sleep if it off.
What I would do to be able to do this. I just can't and I guess I can't hold it against you for falling asleep if you were exhausted after a bad day.

Plans should be on for tonight instead. I'm excited.

I have decided. I will miss your blue blue, I can live without your white and pink if I have to.
I can live without jokes about green. Just give me you're black over white. I miss that too much.

Is it too much to ask? to just leave me alone?
You have never had reason to worry.
You have never had reason to caution me properly.
It's funny, you say something to me and I will argue to the ground.
Then your other half says it and all I can do is to agree.
I cannot and will not do anything to upset this other half.
It's not in me to do this.

I got a new phone, I lost a lot of numbers. I only have numbers saved onto my sim card. There are SO many numbers I have, from people i have not thought about in a long time.
Then I see the name, and memories, jokes, little things all come rushing back. I know I have/had a reputation for texting a new girl every other week. It's just funny when you think, do people even think about you. Surely if they meant something to you sometime, You might have meant something to them as well. I know girls seem to live by this, "boy texts girl first, or we don't talk today" kinda rule. I think that's BULL SHIT, but sadly it's life for most girls to the point girls go and think lads are douches because they think they are ignoring them. So I might never hear from them again unless I make the effort. It's retarded sometimes. I have no problem manning up and talking first, just a hint my presence is even wanted helps. Even just a "text us tomorrow" will do. Fuck its not a lot to ask.

I have something to talk about later, Whenever I have enough time for a large post.