11.2.10

Just to simplify things, I'm relating walking to accomplishing goals, The Goal being the destination.

I feel like I'm walking somewhere. Well not really walking, but I'm the kinda person who sets a goal. I never really abandon that goal. I complete nearly all my goals, I just never keep to a time frame. Call it being lazy, I just never like being restricted. I relate it to walking a a lot. Since I love to walk and clear my head. I thought the other day, right maybe I'll walk for a while, a journey I started years ago. Maybe eventually I'll get there. It doesn't matter to me how many side trips I'll find myself taking or being thrust upon me. Soon I know I'll be that little bit closer to deciding if the journeys even worth it. I thought it was until I came to this obstacle, while usually I'd say fuck this and get over/around/under/go through it. This one hit me and I couldn't quite just get past it, I've been on this walk such a long time, a little longer wont make much of a difference. I just said I know my destination, I'm just not there yet. I guess we'll just have to see how long it takes.


Another thing I wanted to talk about. Life time effecting choices.

My sister came out randomly the other morning with do you think "...... and ......." will get married? I gave her my opinion and she said something that got me thinking: it's weird everyone has best friends that you want to have for life. You never think that by having them there for life You also gain another person for life, I.e The person they marry. Or the multiple people they bring into your life until that time. Even the fact that having a friend for your life means you will probably have contact with that persons family for life, so what if their little brother/sister marries someone? You will know him/her all your life too. Eventually you gain a web of people that will be around you all your life. Assuming one doesn't become a complete and utter nutty fuckin' psycho and try kill their spouse with a home made bomb, some poison and a pig, or well y'know.. just cheat on them. I just find how easy we make relationships and have them attached to you is.
We are human beings, We live on relationships. We need them bonds. They make us feel good about ourselves and others. They help us move forward. "I'll make my stand, right here, with my friends"
I remember how when we were all young teenagers, You measured how close to someone you were by how many secrets you knew about them, Weather you earned them secrets through trust or not...
It's all silly now but back then it made a big difference.

All the memories that statement just brought back.

I'll say this now because of that; but I have no idea if you actually do read this but I have a feeling without even leaving a vague hint that only you might pick up on, you will get this is about you. As some people say my Blog is advertised on my Msn more or less. I ran into you the other day. I really didn't expect it. It was nice to see you. You told one of my favourite old stories about us. It always makes me laugh. We had some good times. Some seriously good times. Why did we grow apart? I guess I became self secluded and you got other friends. It doesn't matter to me much. I know if I bumped into you and we had a chat, I'd act as if it was just last week we hung out. I'd like to have one of them nights again. I'd like it a lot. That's my understatement of the year.