The past, still present.

I've always found it funny that, technology can change everything. The lads came down to mine on Tuesday night to watch some tv and have some pizza. Something we've not done since the start of the summer. I'd ramble off more about how much I missed the lads and how it annoys that we don't get much of a chance to hang out anymore but i wont. Eddy's phone has been broken for the very long time now, and he hasnt had free texts so he asked could I see what was wrong with my old nokia, I checked but while checking my drawer of what is usually "no return" for such things as phones, chargers and the like. I found both my old phone, and my mp3 player I got for my last birthday off my parents. I thought I lost that mp3. I need to keep track of things more I think. I usually know where everything is at any given time, My room like what most teenagers would call an "organized mess". I like the fact that I packed my mp3 full of pictures so I wouldn't lose them. I love looking back and stuff.

On this phone that I had rummaged out to give to eddy, I found messages from someone, written a long time ago. The earliest dating back to 1/09/2007. These messages meant that I'd probably not want to part with the phone and I realised why I never through it away.

Reading back through all these messages, I realised that I had once, something amazing with someone who was not important to me in the way that most people my age find people to be important. She's not of the same blood as me, she's not family. She's just a girl I randomly started to talk to one day, that eventually became what she is today. having said "I had once" I actually meant I still have. Things between me and this girl sometimes go through rough patches, which are not really that bad because, no matter how dark and bleak this tunnel is that we have found ourselves in, we know theres light at the end of it. It doesn't matter how long it takes to get there, it doesn't matter how shit it feels to be in said tunnel, We just know that one day, we will get there. Together, us, eventually. It doesn't matter. Everything is going to be alright. I could go on telling the world, how amazing this girl is, how much I love and care about her. Some things are meant to be private so I think specifics should be between us. I just wrote this to remind her of what we've got, and what I never want to give up.