10.4.10

A boy has the right to dream, there are endless possibilities before him. What awaits him down the path, he will then have to choose. The boy doesn't always know. At some point the boy then becomes an adult and then learns what he was able to become. Joy and sadness will always accompany this. he is confronted with a choice, when this happens, He will bid past fair-well in his heart, once a boy becomes an adult, he cannot go back to being a boy. The boy is now a man. Only one thing can be said, A boy has the right to dream, for those endless possibilities, that are stretched out before him. Just remember, all men were once boys.

Outlaw Star narration - Star of desire.



Growing up scares the Be-jesus out of me. I go though it with a kinda of dead love for it. I love to prove I'm grown up and responsible. I've always done this. I can't actually remember the last time I said "I was a boy" or "I was a kid" I spent too long wanting to grow up. I spent too much time wanting to be like my sister, wanting the freedom she had when she grew up. Now I'm too self conscious to do anything. My brother referred to me as a "bank" with my money these days. That's something else to rant about. These days, I find myself feeling like a bank. I mean, you know when you walk into a bank you know "this is a place of work", People in suits. Theres that bank smell, the security. the quietness of the people talking about money, getting on with their job and the feeling that if you worked here the boringness would kill you. I feel like The embodiment of a bank.

I will break this feeling though. Bring on Leeds.

I have another idea for a short story, I'm not that good at writing. It usually turns into a mess and I delete it. I probably wont bother with this idea. too many stolen Idea's from things. Who knows maybe I'll get really bored and just do it. I never show anyway. I just like to write. It takes up time, It expresses Ideas. It's just, something I love.