Today was traumatic

So today, I nearly killed a little girl.
I was cycling to work, and people from the match in Croke park and this woman was walking with her child, holding her hand on one side, and the pram in front of her, I mean the child is about 4-5 years old. Small with black hair. Sucha a Baba. Suddenly, this kid comes darting out from her mams side and into the path of my bike. I come so so close, within 2 feet of kneeing her in the head. It all happened so fast. I used my left hand to jam on the break, and I skidded forward then I actually managed to grab this childs hand with my right hand. picking the child up about half a foot in the air and out of the way of my bike. I then stop very quickly when the break started to work and I fell off my bike but since the kid was in the air and a bit forward the kid landed on it's feet.. I ended up on the ground sprawled out on my side and in alot of pain. .
Holy shit. It was amazing. It was terrifying. It was actually something I never hope to repeat ever. I am so so throughly happy with myself that, I'd put someone else's safety before my own

I've had this discussion with my mate Eddy numerous times. What it would be like to put your life on the line for something. Weather it'd be in war fighting for your country. To fight someone because they are being attacked in the street, Or simply to have someones back whenever they need it. Could you make the ultimate sacrifice for a friend, family or the person you love? I've always thought I could. Saying this, I believe with my entire being that you CAN NEVER KNOW THIS FOR CERTAIN until the moment that this choice has to be made, the fight or flight decision.

I've been in a lot of fights. I've never in my life started a fight. I've got one rule with fights, Avoid them, they are pointless, If you've no other choice. Defend Yourself and do it well, If you beat someone easy then it's less likely others will try, in saying this, I've always been the first in line to stand beside my friends when they get into one. I know that I will always have their back when they need me. I've made that choice before so many times, that it's not a choice. It's just how it is. I just will always wonder, would I take it to the next level? Would I, or more so, could I do it? I like to think I would and could. I just believe I wont know, until the time comes, and it's too late.