I think choices are a pretty big thing for such a split second decision. I've never really had to think about it before this week because alot of people I know have made decisions that are pretty big but yet they seem to have thought about it very little. I don't mean like little as in the time spent, I just mean when you ask why or to explain how they came to the choice they have, they never really have an answer. I like to validate all my choices with reason. I think that you should have a reason for doing everything. If its something small as to just want something for yourself then the reason for doing it is selfish. It is as simple as that.

People around me have made quite big decisions. Even the people who are not "in my life" but are around when I'm out and stuff. People I enjoy seeing and talking to. I don't care that it's only for a few minutes or you barely catch up with what is going on in their lives. They are going travelling. They are moving away.

Recently my sisters boyfriend had to move back to england because he couldn't find work here. She said she might move over to him if he gets his act together. when I was told it seemed like no big deal but it really really is.

When I made the choice to go to college, I never really thought about what I wanted from college, or that it would involve going to DCU for classes and then doing the work. I just took college as something that had to be done. I kinda regret it and I kinda don't. I regret the fact that I'm stuck here for atleast another year and a half before I can really do anything. I regret that when someone asked me to move away with them I had to say no.

I just feel like Everyones leaving. Eddy goes away to america for the summer. That will actually kill me.

Christine goes away sometime that I can't remember. That will kill me.

So many people are planning on going on J1's this summer and I can't.

My decision to stay in my job, stay in college. All my own choices all made with my own reasoning. My life at the moment works. It's lacking a few things but it works.

Don't get me wrong, I just love the idea of going away with friends, it is amazing. I just hate the idea of friends moving and living in another country.

But moving to another country and leaving everything behind. Yeah the internet helps close the gap but the internet does not allow you to hug your mam and dad when you miss them. It does not allow you to sit in the company of your best friends and laugh about old times. It does not allow you to have that place you love to run to when you need to be on your own.

I know that moving also gives you space, it lets you become your own person with your own responsibilities and develop yourself as a person. I know it allows you to go somewhere else, and start fresh. Start with who you are and want to be. I know there are many more pro's for it, I just don't want to think about them. I don't want to want to encourage Eddy to move away and leave. I'm gonna be happy for him. I just won't be happy myself. That goes for anyone.

I'm always going to be from dublin. There are very few places I would like to move to. I'm not saying I wouldn't move at all but it would take alot to make me move.

I just think moving away is huge. The choice is huge. Moving out should be enough for most people. Get your own place and get things started. That way you can still rely on the support of the people who care.

I know I'm old fashion by being quite conservative and negative. My brother calls me boring for it. I don't know. I just like to think about everything and justify it. I've been wanting a tattoo for 5 years now and I have saved for it so many times but my nature does not allow me to pick something that I'm going to have for life. Not yet anyway.

Imagine you went with your original plan, imagine how that would have went, how life would already be different for you? You wouldn't want to still do what you are doing. You'd be happy and comfortable. I've never brought this up with you because I don't believe in convincing someone once their choice is made. They made it for their own reasons. If they prefered another idea then they would have just gone with that.