Saturday, June 26, 2010

26.6.10

I sit here, wishing I was in work. I hate that my job is such a late thing. I work 5pm-1am. Yet I do nothing but wait to go to work during the day. I am trying to save my ass off for college. Results are in five days. I hope to god I done alright. I've to pay for second year myself. 1.500euro is a hard sum to amount while, working weekends on minimum wage. I guess I should be thankful I have a job. It just doesn't make life easier when I tell someone I'm saving and I can't give them money, yet they still ask for it. When I started saving, I picked a sum of money, I must save every week, so no matter what, I save that much + giving money to my mother. It usually leaves me with very little money from what's left do actually enjoy my week. bleh silly rant over.

My dreams have actually been happy the last two nights. I'm not sure why. It's a nice change of pace.

Sentimental lately.

This is a nice post. I don't care how Loserish it is to write something like this. It's just something I've been thinking about. I've a ridiculous problem telling people how important they are to me.


I kinda miss you. I understand why we don't talk anymore. People need to be happy, If being happy means we can't talk anymore.. I'm kinda sorta maybe alright with that? I thought it wouldn't be that bad. It kinda turned out to be harder than I thought. Still, If it means that you are happy, then I'm happy for you. I want you to know. If things don't work out. You can just talk to me, and I wont hold any grudges.

I told you I'd try harder. I tried for about two weeks. I've gone back into my shell. Sorry. I'll come down soon. Promise.

I know, I try to tell you how much I care, In the smallest ways everyday. I never think you get it. I think some of the words, people throw around everyday, hit you and wash off. I don't think you get it, that when I say it. I mean it. I'm not going to go boosting your ego with pointless words. That's not my style.

I know I said, I'd give you a mention somewhere in here. I'm not doing it now because you asked, I'm putting you here because, I think you should be written about here. We've been friends for a long time now. If you count bebo, even longer. I've always liked how you've stuck by me. We always have the laughs. That's the point. We have the laughs. We also both have a unreal liking for a movie, So Telll girl, What do stars do?

We had this small chat the other night. You told me something, that meant so much to me. It actually put this huge smile back on my face. We have catch up planned. I can't wait for it.

I really enjoyed last night, It's been a while since we were so in sync. I guess, thats the beauty of having someones back. It's such a good thing to know someone has your back. Letting someone know you've got theirs is just as good.

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Lyrical Genius.

Nanananananana BATCAN!

Lately I've been really into my music, listening to every line, bopping to every beat and just enjoying music really.

If someone asked me about my music taste, I'd usually reply, Pop-punk, Emoish bands then anything you can dance to really. I Dance, yes I do. I think I look retarded but Fuck it. I'm usually locked. When I go looking for something I really want to "get into" It's usually Rap music, for some reason. I will lose hours listening to Eminem, for reals.

I know I've posted lyrics from this guy before but really. I love Dan le Sac vs Scroobius Pip.

This song that I've posted is amazing. The lyrics I have loved since I first discovered them.
Used to have this on repeat not too long ago:

Look For The Women.

There's a weight over me today,
it's something I have to say,
love you too much to leave,
don't like you enough to stay.

My heads in a mess
and I'm stressed
but i guess its a test in the quest for happiness
and the rest of that mess
so i best just acquiesce
even though I've grown tired of you

And that ain't meant to sound spiteful
I'm just trying to be insightful
when i write all my emotions
In the night all the stuff I try to fight
just comes out and the sad fact is I'm so tired of you

Love, its a weird thing ain't it?
there's no way to explain it
but i swear as well as pain
there should be joy but we sustain
the same level of mundane
and its numbing me through

i often wonder if I'd miss you
and have the urge to kiss you
if an issue was to hit through
to this heart that now feels disused
and said issue was too big to just ignore
and i walked out on you

the chances are I'd fall apart
and suffer seizures of the heart
as my chest begins to smart
the very second have to part
i want to go back to the start
but then again maybe I'd just feel new
maybe I'd get my life on track
and start to focus my attack
on all the things my life just lacks
and start to claw my passion back
instead of living like a hack
half committed half relaxed
id have nothing to lose

I guess lately I've had too much time to think
and yeah way too much drink
when paper meets the ink
over thinking is the chink in my armour
that's just what i do.
And I've always been that way, forever questioning each day and every plea that's made that maybe when i lay my busy mind will make me prove by finding problems and reasons, that might not be true.(?)

See we got together so young,
before our real lives had begun,
but flowers don't grow up as one,
each finds its own way to the sun,
and that's exactly what we've done.

We've grown up separately too,

And for a few years now it's been the problem,
and these realisations...i wish that i could stop them,
but I've realised that love is all we have in common,
and deep down you know that's true.

But then surely that I'm still in love with you means there's something we can do....to get us through and to pursue a brand new point of view on how this gap grew... between me and you.

So there's a weight over me and i'd hate to have to leave
but in fate i don't believe and the state of you and me isn't great as you can see.....
so i'll keep thinking this through.

Monday, June 21, 2010

Sleepless Nights, Hurtful Fights and My Brain Going to Hell.

My nightmares are getting worse. seriously worse. I'm actually going to die of exhaustion before I let myself fall asleep. Fuck sleeping. The stress of things lately I think is causing it.
Things are not AS bad as I thought, but it's become apparent. It's time to start spending time with old members of my family.

It's crazy how I much I miss you, and how hard it is for me to say, goodbye and I miss you on the phone. My voice like breaks a little each time, It's a tad emotional.

This brings me to something that got onto my mind tonight, Lads who play off that "they are caring and just want you to know they really do care" BULLSHIT. I guess this is kinda personal too but yeah. Lad i know was with this lass, They broke up after a fairly long relationship. They had a break and decided, "yeah lets give this a shot again" well, due to the way things worked out, they both went there separated for the summer and he proposed the idea, of not doing shit with anyone else, and just waiting until they seen each other after summer to try again. Sources then go and confirm he had some other lass in his bed last night. I'm not perfect but seriously. somethings bug the fucking shit out of me.

What was the intention of the proposed idea? Did he wanna come home, and try again and never say what happened? Did he intend to tell her? It's not enough my business to be the one to tell her. I can't find out. Did he just wanted to be sure she wouldn't go off with another lad before he got home to "reclaim his territory?" Maybe it's a mutual situation and my information is outdated. I don't know. He's just a douchebag. Maybe, I'm just jealous because I liked her. I know I'd treat her better. He doesn't deserve her. She doesn't deserve that from him.

Some lads pull the wool so easy over girls who want to believe what they are being told. It's not a crime to just want things to work out.

I'm saying this though, girls are far from perfect.

I'm sitting here listening to Dashboard Confessional - Hands Down. I love this song. It's got beastly nice lyrics. Well so do most
Dashboard Confessional songs.

I need to say this to you, I know you said you're not mad at me. While this is all the good news, I just feel I need to tell you something important. You might not have meant it the way you did, but you know how I am with the smallest things. This blog is public, Yet private. So I figure this is my best shot at showing just how sorry I am for what I've done. You might forgive me, but I wont let myself forgive myself so easy.

It's when you said "I didn't think you considered me like any other girl" I'm going to be honest. That hurt a lot. I've written this thing in my head a hundred times but yet, every time I write it down it lacks what I'm trying to convey past the letters in this blog. I just need you to know that You have been never considered like any other girl, you never will be considered like any other girl. I told you a while, Every detail about the day that I first started talking to you, from the moment I woke up, to when you fell asleep trying to stay awake to text me, to the clothes I was wearing and the things we talked about. I remember that, and can tell you because It meant to much to me that I think about it loads therefore becoming ingrained on my mind. One of those memories you just never let yourself forget. I've bought you credit when you couldn't get it because I didn't want days to pass when I wouldn't get to talk to you. I think that was a bit selfish though. I just put it here because, I just think that it helps show what I'm trying to get out of my mind and onto this. You can't read my mind. You can read this however. I've spent hours finding nice songs to text you. So you have something to smile about when you wake up. These are just some of the things that, I wouldn't do for others. You can give out to me for putting this here. I'll take it down if you like, but for now. I just need you to understand. You're not like other girls. Never have been to me.


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Sunday, June 20, 2010

WaitingForTheBeat

I'm changing the name of this Blog. I named it after something I say to a friend of mine, because I told her she always could have faith in me. Tonight, I realised I was lying to her. I don't deserve to say it anymore.

Saturday, June 19, 2010

Things are different now.

I was always sure of some things in life. Weird not being so sure anymore.


I've gotten my first proper nights sleep in over a week last night. I slept from like 5am-3pm.
So so so good. I think the reason I'm sleeping is probably a mixture of the heat and some particularly bad nightmares lately. I hate nightmares. 5am-8am sleeps+ nightmares, can suck my nads. I get very little sleep as it is I just want to enjoy it when I get it. It's not too much to ask.

I've got work soon. That's the problem sleeping so late. I don't get a chance to do anything today.

I think I'll go think about the same things that have been on my mind all week.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

When I wake up in the mornin'

Dear brain.

What ever part of you thinks sleeping at 5am and waking up at 8am is cool, should go and die.

Your friend, now half zombie.

Aidan.

Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Honestly...

I don't know why, you said the things you did today. I think you are being completely selfish. I sorted things for my last birthday, just for you. I had to explain to someone I honestly care about that they can't do something because of someone else.
If you read this, you will know its about you. I just can't believe some things you say. You get away with it because of who you are. What you said hurt me, I'm not gonna lie. If you can't get past something, SO important to me. Then what's the point? I'd do just about anything you asked of me if it was important. You know that. I just don't get why it's not the same for me? I get one shot at this. Let me have it my way. If not, you are just being a plain douche bag and can get over thinking I wont pick the many over the single. Sound blood.

Monday, June 14, 2010

I'm going to give credit where credits due. I took this Poem from Amy's blog. It's Yeats, and I love it.

Had I the heavens' embroidered cloths,
Enwrought with golden and silver light,
The blue and the dim and the dark cloths
Of night and light and the half-light,
I would spread the cloths under your feet:
But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams

The last three lines, OH YES.

I want to write more, I'm just busy as of now. fuck this.

Saturday, June 12, 2010

I'm in a very nice mood today. I'm not sure why. I just am.

Friday, June 11, 2010

Finally admitted to myself, that you and you alone are the reason that I have a permanent fucked up body clock for the time zone I live in. I just don't give a shit. It's worth it.

Thursday, June 10, 2010

10.6.10

Is it me or is nearly everyone being even more bitchy than usual to everyone else?

I get two people are having a particular disagreement but are still trying atleast to get past it. I respect you both for it because it's never happened before and I don't know how to fix it. I just know, if we didn't have major history, We probably wouldn't be friends. Funny thing about that statement is, It kills me to think of life differently in this way. I don't know what would happen.

I find myself moaning about things all week long. Small things and big things. People especially.

I have to clean my room, I guess I'll write more later.

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Nicked.

I took this from Ciara =D

Ten things about yourself:

I love to read.
I snore.
I watch about 1 hour and 30 minutes of tv a week, If even.
I go to Dublin City University.
I love local music.
I live to musical Empathy.
I don't sleep very much.
My hairnet is the bane of my existence, but It's the price of not compromising who I am.
I play games online too much.
I write this blog for me, but I'm happy others like it.

Nine things you've thought about lately:

What I'm going to do for my twenty first.
Why did you have to be born half way across the world?
Pizza nights on Tuesdays(Tomorrow)
Surprising my dad with a Rage Against The Machine ticket.
Playing GW properly.
What life would be like if I moved out.
What if me and Eddy go to Canada next summer like I plan to.
Why I stopped wearing my glasses outside of my bedroom.
Making more tea.

Eight ways to win you're heart:

Stay up late.
Love chicken like I do.
Be a gamer.
Be yourself, always.
Love music.
Like random walks.
Be smaller than me.
Put up with my bad habits.

Seven favourite songs you've had:

Sugar Were Going Down Swinging - Fall Out Boy.
Jude Law and the Semester Abroad - Brand New.
Slow - Dara Yeates.
Fox and the Hound - Dara Yeates. (not sure thats the name of the song really)
The Night in Question - Reuben Teskey
Remembering Sunday - All Time Low
In Friday Lights - AlwaysRushingBy

Six things you do before bed:

Make sure my dog is on my bed, If not, go get said dog.
Make sure my doors open a little so he can get out in the morning.
Get changed.
Throw my phone onto my pillow.
Get my book/movie ready
Play with my dog before getting under the covers.

Five things you wish you could say to some people right now:

Stop thinking you've better than everyone else.
Just because, you don't like it doesn't mean it's shite.
I wish you'd talk to me all night tonight.
Sweet dreams, beautiful.
Thanks for everything, really.

Four things you're doing right now:

Wondering what time I'll get asleep at, I hope it's soon (5.14am)
Listening to the Starting line - Best Of Me
Eating chocolate digestive biscuits.
Over thinking.

Three you're scared of:

Spiders.
Tight spaces.
Drowning.

Two things you want to do before you die:

Pay my parents back for everything they've given me in life.
Cuddle with someone in particular.

One confession: I will probably break down when my dog dies. When It happens, Someone hug me and don't let go.

Sunday, June 6, 2010

Changes.

Being home is starting to kill me, I've missed a trip to Aidan G's house, A Bbq in Thomas's house. and Karma this weekend, fuck that.

Going to watch UP in DĂșn Laoghaire outside with Eddy and Mike :)
I cant decide If your playing a fucking game with me or not. Seriously fuck you. I'll destroy you. I'm Not Afraid.

Wednesday, June 2, 2010

Slamdunk, Leeds. '10

I guess it's time to write about this.

I'm still recovering, I'm putting that out there now.

It started at 8am on Saturday morning waking up on a mattress on Jays floor. We got up and showered (together obviously) ;) we got ready and had some breakfast, still had loads of time untill getting collected my Richey and his dad, waited around for a bit until we heard Jays dad ask us "why are you up so early? Swear Rich, You'd remember your sons leaving the country this morning aha. We got collected shortly after that and we got to the airport and we met jays mother, Yvonne. If anyone doesn't know she works security at the airport and managed to get us through the lines and stuff in a few seconds, well everyone besides Andrew(chuckles) He had a dodgy print out of his boarding pass and had to go back and get a rea one from the Ryanair desk. We said our goodbye to his mam and we went to found our gate for the flight, as soon as we hit that, We hit the pub :D nothing like an Ice cold pint of bulmers and a jam scone at 10.30 on a saturday morning, I was ordering my drink and scone and I asked for Bulmers and jam scone, the lady replies, "that's not jam" I was like "Well what the fuck is it then?!" I didn't mean to say it out loud but I came out and she just laughed and said it was cherry or something. A few minutes later the rest all walked into the same pub. I'll try list everyone:

Eoghan, Warry, Regan, Hannah, Greg, Ste, Barry, Hamo, Al and Craig.
So that left All of them and Jay, Richie, Andrew and myself on the plane. Ste met some girls he knew in the airport that I ended up spending most of the night with at the after party later known as Steph and Laura. I'll explain that later.

So yeah, we got on the plane, Three to a row, I sat with Jay and Richey sat with Andrew. I'm an alright flyer. I'm not as bad as I used to be since My trip flying on my own two years before to London. This flight was actually grand. The lads had fun throwing tampons they had found in the bathroom at each other. Eoghan managed to throw one further than he thought and hit a girl in the head that was not in our group. Warry and steph literally argued the entire flight about her being from Belfast therefore being English, not Irish, while she Argued she was Irish because she lived in Ireland. I'd get back into that debated right here and now, but as I found out, the irish think they are english and the English think they are Irish, so the conclusion, No body wants them. I kinda started feeling sick on the decent to Leeds-Bradford airport. Swear down I was going to get sick on jay at one point, but I didn't tell him, We got out and got our of the airport into fresh air and I felt better thank god I didn't fancy being sick all day.
We got our taxis somewhere around 1.10pm and got to the Uni about 1.40 Then me Jay. Richey and Andrew walked back to our hotel. Since we were flying out at 9.30pm the next night we booked a hotel, while the rest were flying out at 6am So they planned on just going to the airport after the after party. We ended up walking down and trying to find our hotel instead of getting a taxi to it. Richey knew where he was going, just he took the long route. It took us about 30 mins to get to the hotel after being one road away for about 10 mins as we were not sure exactly where it was. Fuck england being on a hill. Seriously all of Leeds was one big hill.
We went down, got changed and headed back up to the University to see the bands. not before you know, we hit the one of three subways. Fuckin' lovley shit.

I was not arsed walking. I'm not gonna lie, I'm lazy enough. So i got the lads to get a taxi.
This taxi driver was fucking hilarious. We were all dying in the taxi by the time we got to the University. He was an Indian man, so you can guess the English Indian accent He was like "going to the festival?" And Richey goes "yeah we are, The drive started saying, "going to pick up chicks??, take them back to the hotel, and roast them? are you going to eat them as well? their milk is nice, you should milk them too and drink the milk" We were dying of laughter at this point. for serials.

We got there and were directed to the E-tickets line as we booked online. FUCK THAT LINE. It took us about an hour and 10 mins to get through that line, while people with tickets were flying by, We talked about how the gig in london didn't go so well as there was capacity problems for the bigger bands and stuff and an early curfew on the bands. We hoped that wouldn't happen here We ended up getting into the gig about 4.10pm or so. The lads went down to see the wonder years while I went to the main stage, otherwise known as "The Glamor kills stage" to see HIT THE LIGHTS on my tod. I seen the other lads there though, so all was good. HIT THE LIGHTS were actually so good. The singers not that good live, but you could still hear him atleast. I hate seeing bands where the singers totally drowned out. "Stay out" is my favourite song by HIT THE LIGHTS and I loved to hear it. It's just such a tune! During the set me and some of the lads did these shorts of jeager that you get in what was practically a test tube in science back in secondary school. After HIT THE LIGHTS I headed straight for the bar, It was time to get my drinking on. price for drink wasnt so bad, I think it was £3.75 for a pint of Bulmers with blackcurrant. I got two just for the sake of not having to go back into line because the bar was pretty packed. I headed back to the main stage as SET YOUR GOALS were due to play soon enough. I had the choice of going to see SET YOUR GOALS or WE ARE THE OCEAN. In the end SET YOUR GOALS with the lads. SET YOUR GOALS won. I couldn't actually believe how good these guys were, the entire band was wearing suits because, they have a fair few kinda politically motivated lyrics and one singer was just dressed normally. It was just so good. They looked so good no stage and one of the singers could just be heard so clearly. I wish i knew more about them such as names, so I wouldn't just be saying "one singer" aha.

One thing that got me while SET YOUR GOALS were playing, I started to mosh and shit with everyone else, but I took a break for two songs I didn't know. There was this girl, she was like 14 or something she was tiny, so she got on her mates shoulders. Some lad actually walked across the floor and tried to push her off, she was horrified but when he done this some people in the crowd caught her and put her back up, so he comes back. What fucking douchebag comes back for a second time?! So i stood beside her and when he extended his arms to push her i knocked them away. He squared up to me, he was a little smaller than me, and I was just like, "You're a fucking douche, piss off" and he moved his head that ever little bit closer to mine, and before he pulled it back I had pushed him with both my arms and he went flying stumbling back across the mosh pit that had been cleared into a circle and fell on his ass, he got back up and looked at me, obviously he couldn't hear me but i gestured with my arms that he could come back if he wanted and try again, but he just got up and acted like it didn't happen. Fucking right, douchbag. Later the girl came over to me and said thanks. I didn't care for the thanks, I done it regardless. but the thanks was nice. :)

SET YOUR GOALS finished playing there set with Mutiny! Which I can safely say has now ranked 3rd on my best songs heard live list. They didn't play "Work In Progress" which Is my favourite song by them. I was gutted but still happy at the end of the set. MUTINY!

More drinks were had between the break, It was seriously warm inside at the stages.

Next was FOUR YEAR STRONG. these were the best band for me for the weekend. They were so tight, and so good at everything, they told a story about a lad named Moe, who had a ticket to slamdunk to see them play, but had died shortly before. They dedicated their set to him. It was so cool. They played stuff off the new album that I didn't know. I knew I should have listened to it more before I went. Heroes Get Remembered, Legends Never Die was just so good. I love this song too much. I spent most of this set losing my shit to great songs, killer break downs with the lads and moshing. Shit was seriously epic. Anthony Kelly, said they'd be playing here in Autumn. I can't wait for that. To see them again would be amazing

More cooling drinks were gotten this time, I hit the shop for some milk. It just felt like the right thing to do. Love milk.

Jay and myself had lost Rich and Andrew at this point and everyone else, we actually just decided we had enough in the pit and just decided that NEW FOUND GLORY were more of a sing along, band so we stood at the back of the hall singing along. It was just so good. They played everything but My Friends Over You. They played Hit or Miss for their last song. That killed me. It's not my favourite song and I was burning up so I left to find jay, who went to get our after party tickets. Only to find out they came back out to play an Encore including My Friends Over You. Gutted. So so so Gutted. I will go see them again to just hear them play that.

I went and bought a FOUR YEAR STRONG hoody in the merch, on the way out as we decided to go back and shower before heading to the after party. Silly Eoghan handley decided to just wear a T-shirt as it was roasting all day, but it got freezing that night, especially in sweat soaked clothes, so I let him wear the hoody I bought to keep him warm and said I'd get it back off him when we get home(which i did last night). Me and the lads went back to the hotel to shower. We were leaving the rooms again back to the after party and I go, "I feel so much lighter now that I've changed" and Jay goes "Probably because you just lost a leitre and a half of sweat in your clothes" despite how horrible that is, It's probably true.

We decided to get some dinner before we went to the gig, dinner at like 11.30. Aha. We headed for burger king, only to find it closed and then realised there was a Mac Donalds like, 20 feet from it. Talk about competition. Had a nice chicken legend and straw berry milkshake :)
The reason I'm posting so long about Mac D's is because while we were sitting there, there were 4 lads highly dressed up at a table counter in front of us, the cleaning guy came over to see if there was anything there he could clean and they more more or less told him to "fucking wait" and then when they were done, left a huge mess and one even tried to knock over what was left of his drink but lucky enough, it didn't fall over. I felt so bad for the guy, I know england can be fairly Racist. but the cleaning guy, was white English. Lads were just being dickheads. We finished eating and he came over to us and asked were we finished, we said yeah, and we cleaned up everything, and put it into the bags we got them in and kinda wiped off the table, and asked the lad, where the bin was. I could TELL we caught him off-guard, the lad was genuinely surprised at what we did and was like, "oh no I'll put it in the bin don't worry." so we gave him the bags and left. He was so nice, He shouldn't have been working in that job. Mhhhm, strawberry milkshake.

This blog is getting fiendishly long so, yeah.

So the after party. We got back up there around 12. It was on from 11pm-3am.It was pretty cool to be honest. Down in two little night clubs under the University. one played good music, but was TOO FUCKING WARM TO BREATH IN and the other was cold but shitty to alrightish kinda music, only good songs played were, holy diver by kill switch engage, and This could be anywhere by Alexisonfire. When Alexis came on there was about 15 of us sitting around the table, wrecked tired. Eoghan was alseep on the hoody I gave him, or atleast trying to sleep. Everyone just started to air drum and sing along. It was so funny. I didn;t feel like just sitting around for the night so after I finished a few drinks, I went out with the mentality of chatting some girls up. Jay decided to come with me, we walked around for a while, but instead of chatting anyone up, We ran into Steph and Laura from the plane. We talked to them for a few mins, then Richewy and Andrew came to find us and said they were heading back to the hotel. Jay decided to go with them. I told them I'd be back later. It was only like 1.45am or something, no way was I not making the most of this trip. So they went back, and I stayed, stuck with steph and Laura, they introduced me to Ais and Sam who turns out would be on our flight home. We ended up drinking more, and dancing to some absolute tunes. Me and Sam ended up kicking an empty bottle of vk back and forward for a few minutes. We just walked around for ageeesss. having the laugh stuff, for some reason they kept running away from each other, then Sam and I would be left together. Sam kept having to hold stephs stuff, I found it so so amusing. He always had two drinks and a handbag, Funny thing was that He was with Ais not steph. the night ended and we got kicked out about 3am, We stood outside and walked around for a while. Ais giving steph a jockey back around the place was just funny. It looked like she was going to fall over at anytime. Painful thoughts. I was quite drunk at this point and couldn't wait for sleep, Even if it was in a crappy hotel bed. We ended up like, getting taxi back around 3.45am and I got out first. said good bye to everyone and jumped out of the taxi, nearly fucking hit my head off the roof, but I looked cool. So all was good =D. When I got out I wasn't quite sure where I was but then I figured out I was just around the corner. Lucky for me aha. I hit the room, and hit the deck. out cold withing two mins.

That was the end of my Sunday. I'm not writing loads about Monday, I'm going out soon and have to get ready.

Monday: We got up around 9.30am because check out was at 11. We had showered and got ready. We went and got breakfast in the pub next door. The lads got something fucking delicious looking. I just got some chips. My stomach had not quite settled yet. We walked around and found some cool shops. There was like 3 shopping centers within like, 5 mins from each other. One was practically empty though. Everything was so white. So clean. It was a lovely day, I only had a black hoody. fuck was I wearing that.
The idea of me wanted to stay on the Monday, was the fact. I played an online game for ages, and on the very first day I played it, I met a lad named Rob. This was nearly 5 years ago at this stage. We have always kept in touch and talking. Even though we have both stopped playing the game at this point, We arranged to meet up. It's weird going to meet up with someone you met online. I've done it before because I feel no different about it anymore than meeting anyone else. Turns out He's a sound sound lad. He drove for an hour to get to Leeds.We met up had a pint, moved on, I went and bought something for my room. Then We went and had another pint down by our hotel. We had the chats but he was driving so he was just on the diet coke. we had the chats then he spotted the lads walking around, and got them in. We all had the chats, they were wrecked. We drank so more and I got quite pissed. We ended up going to go get dinner, but first we walked rob up to his car and said goodbye. It was a rally nice thing. Seeing someone you've talked to for so long, but distance gets in the way. I've so many friends that live so far away. I'm used to it I guess. We then went and got subway, I ended up eating and then that with the combination of the drink, I fell asleep in the chair in subway. I'm going to highlight that subways in england are not like what they are like here. They have nice chairs, Armchairs even. It's crazy. Such a nice place. So yeah, I fell asleep and the lads put a basket thing on my head. fair play. Douches. We then headed to the airport. Like a billion hours early (flight was 9.30 we got the bus at 6.20 and got there for 7) I went to sleep on my hoody in the airport while waiting and then we went and got on the plane home. Sam and Ais sat beside me on the plane so I got to talk to them again. It was nice to make some new friends. really nice. We separated from them at the airport when Ais's dad collected them. We got a lift home by my dad.

That was it. The entire two day trip in a fair bit of detail. Amazing Time. Well worth it.

Best band were FOUR YEAR STRONG, but the best song way Mutiny! By SET YOUR GOALS

Ps. Steph is probably the most hyper person I've met in my entire life.

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

Best Girl.

I'm writing this here and now because shit got serious tonight.

My mother the absolutely amazing woman that she is, went and bought me milk before I got home from Leeds. It was so good. I love the way my mother knows what's up, Always.


Lovvveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee