Serious Adventures.

It's Saaaaattturrrrdaayyyyy. I've a shit load to talk about, since I've spent the entire week feeling kinda sorry for myself due to somethings happening then not going as I had planned.
I decided before going out on thursday(that I'm about to write about) that it would be the best month so far, so heres the start of the best month of the year (hopefully)

Lets bring it back to last thursday. [20.5.10] My college class had their history of education exam. I had done it the previous year so I didn't have to do it again thank fuck. it was Celebration night later on, I had an assignment due on the Friday but after having 1,100 words out of 2,000 done I felt i could just get up on Friday and finish it. So thursday, I went home played some S&D with the lads, 6man clutch, just sayin' was cool too because It was just me killing everyone, none of my team died =D. got ready then and headed into town then to meet up with a few girls from my class and Dan. I'd go through everyones names but there was about 7 of us going over to Rachels house in Rathfarnam for pre-drinks, had the laughs then went out in "The party bus" which is like a converted van with tinted windows and a strobe light that fit everyone in it. There was about 20 of us all in all, we got out of the van and went into d2. Talk about a good night, I'd go into it but it'd just cause a bit of drama that i'd rather not bring up. I got home about 4.30 am after giving Ursula a jockey back all the way down harcourt street with Dan taking pictures.If she ever puts up her pictures I'll link one in here. I think I got asleep about 6am.

Friddaaaayyy. [21.5.10] I woke up around 8am, I always wake up mad early If i've been drinking alot. Eddy had an exam at two. I finished my assignment and legged it home for a shower and to get ready. Eddy Sarah and I bussed it up to Ardee, on our way to Shauna and Carpo's going away party. Me trying to get a taxi from Ardee to Talanstown was just funny, I didnt know where to tell the guy to pick us up. I'D NEVER BEEN TO ARDEE BEFORE. We eventually got there about 7. Drinks were bought, I bought a ridiculous amount :) and we went up the Shauna's. Fuck sake her house is huge. It's fucking lovely too. her dogs are huge, but are probably just the nicest things ever. I got to see steph, it's funny when you spend ages talking to someone on msn or texting or whatever but never see them. Then meeting them is just real cool. it was a long nights drinking, got to bed about 5am, sleeping with twitchy Mc fucking twitch alot, Aka Eddy.

Satuurrdaaaayyyyyy [22.5.10] Woke up then about 10, we had planned on getting the 11 bus home, we got up. had a lot of tea and ended up getting the bus at 1 or something, not before me and Eddy walked down the Centra and got a nice chicken fillet roll. Leaving Shauna's was quite emotional I'm not gonna lie, She's probably one of the nicest sounded people I've ever met. I didn't want her to go to Boston, but she's gone now, and All I can think about is Why I didn't go with her and Carpo. I could have been having the best of adventures right now. I just want her to have the best time ever and tell me all about it when she gets home and we have the best catch up night ever. We got back into town and headed back to mine, I thought I'd get to rest before work but No, We go back into town shopping and to meet the lads Ganox, Rhys and Mike from [iCoN] our Clan on xbox, We then went to the gaming center because what better way to break the Ice of meeting new people than to play a few games with them. I ended up having to leg it off to work then from 7-11. I'm not gonna lie. That killed. Then to top that night off, I went home showered and then went to Ray MC Bad-ass's Eighteenth. Such a class night, drinking with the lads. Seeing Ruth and having chats with her. 7 months inbetween seeing her is actually too long. Miss her a lot sometimes you know? x There were some real idiots at the party and Yvonne was calling me a name all night that I don't feel like repeating :$ We had such a good night. I brought Pizza like I always do. Jay lost a bet so now owes me 17 quid.

Sunndaaay was ALL about recovery. I love my mother on Sundays. I work at 4 on a sunday, and I do usually be up all night saturday So I wake up around 2pm to my mother calling me for dinner, So If dinner is breakfast It's Brinner :) <- I don't know but that sounds retarded. Best thing ever though. Then I went to work till 11, and then just died.

Monday was about being dead. By dead I mean cuddling up in a ball watching 2 movies playing alot of Xbox and then only leaving my room to shower and then go get more junk food to eat =D

Todays saturday, last night we went out to Colly house for his birthday. It was also Ray's first official night out. We had some cans in collys and the rest had a Bbq. I'm not a fan of Bbq'd food.
We then went to the porter house down the road. Got refused. Aha. Into town, Living room for a few games of pool. OH WAIT, Ireland match was on so it was jammers, we left and went to fibbers as it has pool tables too. There was a gig on and it was like 10 in or something, Fuck that. onto the porter house up in Grafton Street. On the way I ran into Yolande, Funny when you just run into people. I told her I'd see if I could meet up with her later, She was going to 21's for her Grad night. Lads were drinking cocktails all night, in which you got two straws in each one. This led to jay getting pissed and thinking he was a WALRUS!, as you do. It was funny as hell all in all thought, lads ended up talking to some girls from the southside, bare Cougars. We then hit burger king about 2am. Honestly nothing works better than Mac D's or burger king at that time. Strawberry milkshakes. Boo yeah. Lads all went home about 2.40am, I went over to 21's to see Yolande, I ended up waiting outside for a good 40mins in the lashing rain, Which as to say I didn't regret or anything, You know when you're in a drunken state but, yet it's the best time to think about shit? I was in that mood. I just waited for her to show herself, We had the chats for a few minutes then they got a taxi home and I went home to my leaba. I can't wait till people are finished exams. Then the summer shall rule, properly. spending time with my favourite people. :D

Tonight I go to spend the night in jays, where we shall probably stay up late playing xbox and having the chats to his mam, before going to bed. Then getting up meeting up with Richey and Chuckles and Then FLYING TO LEEDS BABAY. Were going to have adventures and buy shit and stuff, get messed up son!. Leeds will probably be what my next entry is about. READ IT.

I just wanna kinda, take the time while I'm here to explain a few things to people that I can't really explain to them in conversation. Call It cowardly, because they won't know what's about who for sure.

I know I havent been texting or making very much effort lately, because well I've been busy and not using my phone at all really. I just want you to understand I'm not trying to create and gap between us. I don't know how to describe it, but You will always be super important to me. I'll always be there for you when you need me. I just need you to remember that.

Look, I don't know what I'm doing. I'm playing it day by day, conversation by conversation. I'm not expecting anything from you, I hope you're not expecting the same. I enjoyed the time I spent with you, I only wish It was a lot longer. We can spend as much time as you want together over the summer. I know distance is a pain in the arse, but so what? It should be worth it.

It was great to see you, when I did. If i hadn't of had other shit to do that night then it could have been longer and we could have had a proper catch up. That's what we need. After the leaving yeah babe? x

This has been a fucking long blog entry. Been putting it off for tym innit blud?! LOL jk, I'm educated.

LEEDS HERE I COME MOTTHAAA FUCCKKAAAAA'S

26.5.10

I don't know what's worth fighting for
Or why I have to scream
I don't know why I instigate
and say what I don't mean
I don't know how I got this way
I'll never be all right
So I'm breaking the habit
I'm breaking the habit tonight.

I think there's a price we pay for everything. Nothing is ever free. Happiness can be taken away at anytime. It can go just as quick as it comes.

I'm kinda left with no options. I guess I'll just get on with life.
Everything I every really fucking want is always just out of reach.
I'm used to living with this, just the last week I've lived how I should be.
I've met up with people I'd been waiting ages to hang out with.
It's just now that I've done that. It's going to be AGES before I see them again.
I really wish I could just change how things happened the other night, and just well.. make the night last longer. You just made me smile a lot. Thanks :)

Ugh.

Fuck finally getting to see people, then you realise that you don't get to see them for ages. I'll explain later.

21.5.10

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20.5.10

I don't know if I'm wasting my time. Scratch that. I know I'm wasting my time. Theres no point on this. I just have nothing else to do other than to try. I could leave a million and one hints about who I'm writing this to, I just don't think I will. It's better you don't know, because I'd rather it all be left unsaid, than to be said and things change.

I want to write about a time that I had with someone that meant a shit load to me, but the idea is that it means so much to me that I don't want to try describe it. I also don't want to share it with anyone else. I just want to put the memory here, so that I'll remember it every time I re-read this.

17.5.10

I've always blamed something you did to me, on my own shot falling's. I guess everyone does in that particular situation. I was wrong, It is not my fault that this is wrong with me. It's been so long since it was right, I forget what It's like, to just be able to be best dressed to impress. I over think a a lot about it all. It's just not my fault this happened. It is however my fault it's still happening. I guess, this is an apologie for wasting time. Procrastination is the best way to spend your time. I feel you will soon find out that, you failed to succeed in something you didn't stand a chance with anyway. I think I'm doing others a favour when I do what I do. I guess I don't. I'm too well encased in pre-emptive guilt to let myself enjoy anything to do with what I enjoy. This is the very center of my life style. Yes the lifestyle thats met with such hatred and resentment by some those closest to me. Hey, what can you do? Live with who you are, do what makes you happy, Be what you are and just live life, proud, loud and memorable.

They say work will make you free, no it wont. It just fits into my lifestyle quite nicely.

"Welcome back to Delta" "End of the world baby, wouldn't wanna be anywhere else" If you could stand anywhere in the world, and watch the world end, where would it be? If you could watch civilization as we know it, corrode and cease to exist, then I'd think you're fucking lazy and should be doing something about it since for something to corrode it takes time. Honestly, call it a strange train of thought, I think the end of the world would be a beautiful thing. You'd never see more love in the entire world than at this time. Ever seen Armageddon? People crowding with others, being with the people they love. In the place they feel has the biggest value to them. like the house you grew up in. That park bench on that sunny day, where you met the girl you ended up spending your life with, the place that you hiked to in some mountain range that simply took your breath away. You never know, when life's faced with total extinction, everything changes.

Encouragement goes along way. You never know when, you might just say, hey I like the way you do this/that and then that person practices and becomes better. Thats all life is isnt it? more practice. People never grow up, they just learn how to act in public, then practice it.

Funny how in this day and age with social networking sites, phones, and instant messaging you can meet someone without really meeting them. I'm not talking about the sleazy, mails that say "hey bbz u alri?" and have shitty dull fucking pointless going nowhere kinda idiotic conversations. I don't sleep very much. It's long since gone by the days where everyone found it "cool to stay up all night" so I get very bored. You though, just stay up late. I've no idea why. You just do. I like that. someone told how she loved how I was always awake when she text me. I never thought about it that way before aha. Anyways back on track. I like the way you stay up late, We can have the chatz and ramble on and on. sound love yeah? :D

14.5.10

I have decided. I'm going to write another short story. If I like it enough, I might just post it here.

09.5.10

I'm feeling sentimental.

Probably because I feel like things have changed beyond fixing. I want something to remember things by. This is just a stupid idea that will only end in the burning of bridges waiting to burn., or so I've been told.

I don't know if all your personal messages, and face book status are about me lately. You might as well say "I want attention" I will give you attention when you make time to talk to me, not when it suits you because you need some ego boosting.

Who are you?

It's impossible to talk to you, when you wont let me.
It's impossible to try anything at all.
Things used to be so different.
Laughing 'till all hours.
funny questions with the most retarded answers.
Dancing, drinking, eating, very well being.
Right now I'm feeling faithless. You haven't given me a reason for anything in a very long time.